Thursday, April 17, 2014

Man jau tagad ir bail | I am afraid already

Biežāk jādara tas, ko gribi. Tā es svētdienas vakarā nodomāju un iemērcu matus lillā šķidrumā. Kā mamma saka, labāk lillā matus krāsot tagad, nevis 60 gados. Mani baida novecošana, jau tagad, es ar nepacietību negaidu dzimšanas dienas un visu mīļotos 18 netik. Es nebaidos no grumbām sejā vai  lēnākas gaitas (labi,varbūt mazliet),un es,protams, gaidu to pieredzi, ko man sniegs nākotne. Es vairāk baidos no tā, ko es nokavēšu. Negribu atjēgties sirmā vecumā un saprast, ka nedarīju tā, kā gribēju, nesasniedzu to,par ko sapņoju. Man bail no eksistēšanas. Gribu darīt to,ko es vēlos, un es sāku jau tagad.
Un es ceru, kad man būs 60, man būs drosme nokrāsot lillā matus.
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I need to do what I want more often. That's what I thought on Sunday's evening and dipped my hair into purple liquid. As my mom says, better dye your hair purple now, not when you`re 60. I am afraid of getting old, already. I don`t passionately wait for my birthdays and my 18 even less. I am not afraid of wrinkles and slower walk (ok, maybe a little), and of course,I'm  waiting the experience,what future holds. I am more afraid of what I will miss. I don`t want to come to sense when I am grey-haired and understand that I didn`t do what I wanted and didn`t achieve what I was dreaming of. I am afraid of existing. I want to do what I want and I am starting now!
And I hope that when I will be 60, I will have the guts to dye my hair purple.





Brilles - Tiger
Blūze - Reserved
Bikses - Topshop
Kurpes - Naf Naf
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Sunnies - Tiger
Blouse - Reserved
Jeans - Topshop
Creepers - Naf Naf

Foto: Reinis Grīnvalds